I am so tired....I don't think I have much to say this time. Just feel really exhausted, really bored. and of course really lonely. It has been a month since I start working there. But it seems like a year to be around with my family and, or him. It even more difficult to contact my two close friends these days. Right now, I think I am living all by myself. And to be honest, the feeling, the mood, etc....are so "gray". So what if I get a job? I have money, but I loosen my relationship with everyone. My brother and I give my mom the same answer "I am busy tomorrow". However the stories behind it are not the same. I am busy working on weekend, being like a slave, put down my own value to get along with other cowokers. yeah, this is how it looks like when you are new. While I am working like a dog, my borther is busy teaching his girfriend how to drive. He is always busy...but he is really really happy with his work. Unlike me, no life!

I seperate from my family, I don't have time for my hobbies, i am worried about the bills, I start eat unhealthy foods, I smell many different chemicals, my hands are full of germs, my blood level is low, my head feel dizzy, my body is shaking, and I become sick.

Again..........................................

                                One of the gloomy nights

anh con nho ve dieu uoc duy nhat ko?

Neu thoi gian co quay lai vao ngay hom do--neu nhu em that su co dieu uoc nhu vay:

Em se ko uoc moi chuyen xay ra nhu y muon cua minh nua

boi vi khi em rat buon gian, cam thay rat that bai, va that vong ve chinh minh...em chi muon xa cach anh.

Nguoc lai bay gio em muon uoc cho hai dua minh hieu nhau hon

vi khi do em se ko dai dot thot ra nhung loi noi dang cay va em co the xay dung niem tu tin ve tinh cam cua tui minh mot cach that ben vung va lau dai.